August was my bipolar month. I’ve gone my ups and downs of emotions!!!!!!
I got depressed for a short time. Due to my poor decision skills and I became envious, I can’t help to compare myself to my friends online. I tried to ignore some posts I saw on social media. My notifications from IG and FB were still turned off. I don’t want to be distracted as much as possible. It’s bad to compare yourself, it’s easy to say that, but sometimes, it’s just hard. I want to travel so terribly bad, that I want to go to South Korea, relax in Coron, and chill at Sagada. I haven’t visited any of them. Yep, still at home with my untouched savings. My pain in my left wrist is also adding up to why I’ve been feeling so sad too. In general, I’m frustrated, confused, and uninspired in my life.
But, What’s my turning point?
I helped myself, to get up and be inspired again, because if not, I will be in nowhere if I continue this gruel phase. In addition, through Purposeful Creative site, that I really love and enjoy listening as of the moment, it helped me to focus, to take one big thing at a time in my life. I have tons of ideas in my head. However, I need to believe that if my idea is for me, it will be. It’s like if what’s meant to be, it will be. I shall be limiting my time on my blog and journal (sorry for now), and I stopped recording on Youtube with my speaking progress for now, because I’m so guilty of not practising my English.
I added listening to Miss Arianne’s podcast in my daily routine, and I have done my review too. From all her pure posts of inspirations, here I am to pursue my studies to improve my English. I’m glad to attend at other Niner’s branch to learn more and find myself. I still didn’t decide whether I will take UKVI or regular IELTS.. still no final country of destination too. Hmmmm. I’m in no rush.
Thank you Lord for uplifting me again. August will end, but another month is about to begin. Hello, September! *positivity and braver, self!*
Always be grateful 🌷