852 πŸ’ŽπŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘§β€πŸ‘¦ ~

I woke up feeling lazy but today is the day that the Lord has made, It’s Valentine’s day, Ash Wednesday, and my Orientation day.

To make it short, I went out of my house and attended my orientation even though I’m 50 minutes late from the sched time (okaaaay don’t ever follow me being not on time huuu I value how precious is time is like GOLD but there were just days that I can’t reason out anymore just..)

Well, I’m really half-hearted again on working againnnnnn and I don’t know if accepting and signing this work contract will be a good decision.. I will just lift all my worries and uncertainties to God the Father. For He will always bring me to path/ journey of growth and learning.

Thank you po for allowing me to meet these people, Ate Che and Prince(ss). They have two admirable personalities that’s why we felt connected easily. #OrientationDay1πŸ™†β€β™€οΈ

I will cherish this moment, it’s the start for our new beginnings with Av*****. So, help us God.

Before I went home, I went to buy ate’s “pabili” of lipstick in Natasha even though I’m tired and a bit grumpy (my love and service for my ate had won). Least I expected that the second time I will have to go back from Farmers to Gateway to Farmers again.. I was able to extend a small help to Ate Eufie. I just met her there and she asked me if I’m already a member, then if not.. maybe I could let her have the points from the liptints that I will be buying, so my heart is so soft that I can’t decline?? Then, she gave me 20% discount all in all. I’m shook that I have to ask her if she earned profit from asking help from me.. she said yes and she just look so genuine.. I can’t be fooled but I calculated everything and I really got a discount from her. Thank You and God bless ate Eufie!

So I was having a fine day after all, right?

But lo and behold..

I never expect that tonight will be my worst valentine’s at home. My dad and my brother terribly fought again and I can’t do anything but to sobbbbbbbbbbb in the dark. I want to explode and be so mad with the universe but at that moment, I was reminded from this bible verse..

I cried and message Kam and Ate. I tried to comfort myself and other people most esp. my dad (I’m really worried coz anytime heart attack might happen and I DON’T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN). I prayed and I will always choose to love my household. I posted online (family picture + this verse and my gif I made this morning) if it’s the right thing to do but it’s just my last post for now, It’s the time of the year again for social media fasting.

I will continue posting here, so don’t worry. I will still share my day, my simple joys and my journey towards adulthood!!?? Haha! Anythinggg positive 🌻

My first training will start tomorrow!! Woohoo I ironed my old scrub suit uniform and washed my tupperware, it just felt strange to be back, but I’m happy that I chose to move forward again.

PS. I really wanted to give this to my brother today (egg pie~one of his fave) but sadly he refused and hurt me emotionally.. but I chose to forgive him, I still love him even though I hate the way he let his anger/hate grow to his heart that he unconsiously pushing the people who cares and loves him away. 😒 same with dad… huhu. I bought Caramel Pusong Mamon for him..

I am strong, my faith will strengthen me. GOD will heal my family. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Thank you for reading! πŸ’Ž

There’s always something to be grateful for 🌷 Happy Hearts Day!! ❀

Goodnight!

Love,

Nj

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A nurse with immense dreams and strong faith. Deals with everything about life. Moves towards God's graciousness. I love writing, drawing, listening to music, storytelling, traveling, watching k-dramas/netflix, reading books, dancing, teaching kids, and so many more!! ✌

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